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2012-01-25T00:18:00.001+08:00

and it won't rain, my love.

2012-01-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

新年快乐！
跟你过的第二个新年
这次怎样都离不开你了
^-^

2011-12-31T00:52:00.002+08:00

2011-12-30T01:51:00.001+08:00

i dont care,
cause it only makes me feel that i'm some unreasonable girl.
i just take it as i am one.
i just want to be unreasonable at times.

2011-12-28T23:10:00.004+08:00

if you happen to change your mind and visit me here.

my dearest hanny,
thanks for your persistence,
did i told you that your existence grew deeper in my heart everytime i see you?

2011-12-19T01:38:00.000+08:00

when everything is at the perfect moment.

2011-11-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

all i want for xmas..
is you.

2011-09-18T03:11:00.002+08:00

ridiculous things are all around.
i find myself ridiculous at times too.

i need more time to realise.

2011-08-12T22:14:00.001+08:00

i missed you.
and i dont know why.

but still glad you're back to a happy joker.
no matter what are the reasons behind.

and i still hope to see you again.
=)

2011-07-30T00:48:00.002+08:00

i'm getting used to everything.
including not having you always in my mind.

including not sticking around with my besty.
not chatting everyday.

2011-07-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

been a good girl,
i think i can be understanding enough.
will do.

as your wish.

2011-07-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

why leave me with no choice

2011-07-18T00:00:00.001+08:00

三个笨蛋

2011-07-09T01:30:00.002+08:00

still glad that whatever decision i made so far are right, and alright.
so now i know what i want, and what to do now.
just let the feelings go and flow.

fate is not what we think, its about what we do.

2011-07-02T16:42:00.001+08:00

i shall cross that category out of my life,
for now.

顺其自然

2011-06-26T16:10:00.000+08:00

actually come to think of it,
i got you guys around already contented enough,
seriously.
=)

life now is good. doesnt need to change anything.

2011-06-26T06:23:00.000+08:00

so now i know the final main reason.
thats predictable.
and understandable.
so i shall keep my steps and return where it belongs to.

i cant change anything.

2011-06-25T07:07:00.000+08:00

you know i feel like giving up for a thousand times.
its just too hard.

2011-06-25T06:40:00.000+08:00

maybe i made the correct decision,
but gave out the wrong information after that.
i should just work it out it a more natural and sincere way to avoid any misunderstanding,
maybe its getting a little serious with less joke.

but still,
i'm down by the facts.
real facts that i'm facing.
maybe you're not having any problems, its me.
again.

2011-06-22T18:05:00.002+08:00

demoralised.

2011-06-19T06:17:00.000+08:00

its hurting to see you in pain with my 死心眼

its hard to explain how all these came about..
perhaps its a kind of special feeling which i cant really handle.
the replacement did a very important part for this case, seriously.

2011-06-17T11:13:00.001+08:00

thats the plan for now.
i hope nothing will spoil my plan again. =)

2011-06-16T01:34:00.000+08:00

why am i craving for something that seems to be far.
and not warming?

2011-06-15T17:55:00.001+08:00

this is a stupid cycle.

2011-06-14T12:03:00.000+08:00

its the wrong timing. =(

2011-06-11T03:49:00.000+08:00

i need time to think about it.
i need time to figure it out.
and i need more of you to tell me all.
if u're unsure, and i will never step into it.

we need to think about it.
cause i guess you should have already know my stand.

2011-05-31T00:40:00.002+08:00

一但放弃了
就回不了头
一但过去了
就不能重来

2011-05-22T01:57:00.001+08:00

the feeling is weird.
i cant get used to it yet.

it might be a little too late.
but how should i move now.

2011-05-21T04:33:00.000+08:00

please prove me right,
in case i doubt myself and you again.
=)

2011-05-17T04:36:00.003+08:00

i'm still hanging on to that special feelings which i can never predict or anticipate.
its really true that its strong enough to erase off the past, and makes me look forward to everyday.
and feel glad that i given up on something, but got something nice by chance.
i hope we will stay.

2011-05-15T22:03:00.000+08:00

cause you missed it,
thats why i missed you.

2011-05-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

寻找 D调的华丽
=）

2011-05-07T04:32:00.003+08:00

my dear,
that feels vague.
好久不见

2011-04-29T23:02:00.003+08:00

吵了一架
心情好差
好差

是我不好
我不能谅解
i can never understand enough

2011-04-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

its been sometime,
and its always take it or leave it.
i'm gona take it now, and leave it IF i need to.

and the flowers just dont wilt,
thats a very rare case.
i'm becoming more curious to it day by day.

yes, i'm gona cut my looooong hair soon.
it looks so long and style-less.
i'm gona cut it shorter to gain some freshness.

i've got more than a month.
and during this period, i got to make some changes.
自然不起来
想找的东西好像海底捞针

2011-04-21T00:58:00.000+08:00

so cool.
真的不亏是我... 你

2011-04-17T03:34:00.002+08:00

there is no backup plan for me at all. so the plan now is, just enjoy my peaceful life before i need to make some changes to it. and i just got a pair of red hello kitty shoes, looks cool and cute.

2011-04-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

说不出的感觉和纳闷踏不出的那一步等不到的机会和再一次清新的感觉

2011-03-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

i will make sure eveything is cleared. and over. =)

2011-03-15T22:55:00.002+08:00

一人一半
感情不散
i remember i used to say this phrase too.
its the 亲近感

feels like somewhere far away, there is this person who understand your mood in any situation.
a so near yet so far kind of feeling.

2011-03-11T00:21:00.003+08:00

after watching Jay's 2010 concert dvd,
i really miss KL's concert a lot.
we actually got the closest seats to him. so near, so nice.
but the shooting out of firework was really scary though.
=)

2011-03-07T23:18:00.003+08:00

oh well.. its another new kind of feeling.
didnt cherish much.
perhaps its really purely and truely.

but still glad.
its replaced.

2011-02-26T01:02:00.002+08:00

刮风这天我试过握着你手
但偏偏雨渐渐大到我看你不见

从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远

好不容易又能在多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像还是说了byebye...

2011-02-15T00:49:00.002+08:00

i almost forgot to remember.
but i shouldnt remember.
just so sudden.

2011-02-13T13:25:00.001+08:00

i cant make the right choice, to the right person, at this wrong time.

2011-02-07T18:31:00.001+08:00

i had a weird dream.
and i started to think again.

2011-02-06T03:33:00.001+08:00

thanks, and sorry.

2011-02-05T03:41:00.000+08:00

好想再问一遍，
我会等待还是离开？

2011-01-27T00:56:00.002+08:00

2011-01-18T01:32:00.002+08:00

but it seems like something that i just cant do.
i just cant turn away.

it didnt change anything this time.
should i be glad?
=)

2011-01-13T23:45:00.002+08:00

i just realised i do miss miu miu a lot.
shes the most loveable dog ever.

i'm missing so much here and there.
i miss flying kite on a lazy afternoon, stepping around the muddy ground.
miss insisting playing badminton indoor despite bad weather.
miss disturbing and playing with all the fat cats downstairs.
miss waiting while shopping around.
miss waiting for the long name to appear in my phone.
miss having the secured feeling.

i'm just a simple person, but lost all the simple things which i used to love.

suddenly i got some distraction..
thanks.

2011-01-10T21:05:00.003+08:00

and we left with 4days now.
its time to play like a kid again.
lets countdown.

time is running so fast,
but i'm feeling so slow inside,
probably not slow, just doesnt move at all.

2011-01-09T02:13:00.000+08:00

i'm actually quite excited about tmr's muay thai match. =)

2011-01-05T23:49:00.004+08:00

wah, i got so many little and big things to do.

i need to collect my grad stage photo!
prepare and enjoy myself during the trip,
shop for cny decorations,
get myself nice nice before cny,
eat well and visit all my close ones during cny (take more ang bao also!),
stone for vday,
plan for my birthday,
till march.. i can be slightly free-er.

my boss is really encouraging,
i felt so relieved.
and i realised i always needed encouragement.
别人眼里的好，是否出现在你眼中？

2011-01-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

2 more weeks!
就让我们再一次离开现实，
放下一切的包袱
但这一次，会有所不同。

2010-12-31T00:18:00.003+08:00

Its gona be a new year, and a new start after today.
i have accomplished whatever i should in 2010.
graduated from nafa,
got my job,
tried my best to make everything right,
cherish all the close ones,
and be happy!

so in year 2011,
only the good times will stay with me,
those down times will be forgotten,
as usual.

and if i need to cry out everything,
today will be the last day.

i always like this part of the song;
允许我保留我最后一点点特权赦免我想念你的心碎
i guess.. the missing parts hurt most.

2010-12-30T01:10:00.002+08:00

watched Let me in.
quite ok, but i'm really scared of certain parts of the movie.

ace and i went rochor for lunch today,
we had our chicken rice at the same stall,
he got food poisoning but i'm alright.
Thank God.

its been a tiring week as usual.
so lets jia you for the last few days of 2010 before we get our long weekend again!

2010-12-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

i got a xmas and also a congrats gift for myself!
like finallyyyyyyy.
i'm gona take good care of it. =D

2010-12-25T02:08:00.001+08:00

i'm so shagged after a glass of margarita.
btw,
merry merry xmas!

and i shall KO now.

2010-12-22T00:17:00.001+08:00

virus attack.
this is not the time to get sick.
not on xmas and new year season. =(

2010-12-18T14:53:00.002+08:00

I slept too much.
dreamt too much.
and got mixed up.
woke up having a confused feeling.

i dreamt of the expired smile and warm.

2010-12-17T00:51:00.002+08:00

2 good and 1 bad news!

1stly, my probation period is over so i will get a pay rise!
bad news is, my work load will rise together~

2nd good news, we're going batam for a short trip!
yeah-ness.
how i wish i can go for a week and slack like tai tai.

ok time to sleep!

2010-12-15T01:29:00.007+08:00

I'm currently blogging with my heart, not with my mind.

If you remember,
if you care.
if you're still exists.

its been the 14th, and i still care.
although i dont know where are you now.

可不可能不忘记

2010-12-13T22:08:00.002+08:00

batt is recharged after shower!
and finally i'm eating at home.

i'm so tired due to my job.
but i really Love every part of it.
as zu said, we're those lucky ones who work for our passion.
and the Lonsdale catalogue is finally out!
boss is happy with my work, but i didnt give much expression. haha
i was a bit stoned.
and this week gona be very fast and busy again~

btw, i watched hello strangers!
with 4 good friends gang.
so funny and idiot.
and i dont mind watching it again,
just like shrek, i can watch it again and again without getting sick of it. =D

recently,
i met someone like the"hunter".
and now i can understand how ridiculous they can be.
so what if u're a secondary school teacher?
you dont deserve any respect due to ur senseless mind.

ok, time to slack!
before my sleep.

2010-12-13T02:16:00.002+08:00

i told my bro i wanted to get a macbook.
cuz my desktop is dying.
so hes gona upgrade my com and replace my monitor.
yeahs!
so maybe the macbook plan can put aside first.

i had a dream last night.
it was so weird.
and so real.

2010-12-11T03:04:00.003+08:00

redy sky tonight.

we wanted to watch hello stranger or harry porter, but ended up watching Rapunzel due to friday crowd at iluma.
quite a nice and funny show. =D

i was so shock when i came out from office toilet to realise that everyone went home and left me alone in the office with all lights off.
so, i try not to panic and walk to my mac. off every windows in 5secs, grab my phone and bag, chiong straight to the entrance.
but i saw something standing beside the entrance, 1st glance it looks like a mannequin, 2nd i thought i saw something creepy and 3rd, it was Ace standing there laughing at me while covering his mouth. -.-
got shock again and we start to laugh at the whole "incident".
i should say hes nice to wait for me since i'm the last one or i should blame him for scarring me with the lights and his figure.

i realised people love to scare me.
from young i got my bro and fern to scare me with every random stuff.
kang usually scare me with certain sound.
and Ace with his so not serious side.

oh ya, we really almost laugh off our intestines while watching funny youtube videos in office.
such a great activity to end our whole working week.

TGIS
sun i'm going back to work.
i must get my coma sleep before that then!

goodnight!

2010-12-10T01:20:00.002+08:00

yeah i got all the xmas cards!
so happy.

such a joyful day wif all the colleagues sabo-ing me.
cause they are so funny.
and we plan to have xmas dinner together!

weekends gona be busy as usual.
busy with movies, presents and work.

alright. time to deal with my xmas cards!

2010-12-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

i saw the changes,
in me.
i think i should cover off the boney part.
but i have been eating more than before.
so shouldnt be so called underweight, soon.

i forgot how to use illustrator and freehand, best.
i spent 2hrs struggling with both of them, and manage to get something out.

time is precious,
i still cant get a nice watch for myself.

i'm always in love with muji bag.
but i can only afford to buy their milk tea today. haha.

i think i can get used to the yesterday's feeling.
get used and over it.

sleep tight!

2010-12-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

tonight feels like yesterday.
so clear and strong.
no matter how forgetful I am,
I will never forget.

work is getting busier,
clashing with xmas season.
and i haven get all the presents.
haven get to see the xmas lighting at town too.
this gona be a busy week again.
i'm lacking of time for my room.

alright, good night dearests.
no dreams!

2010-12-06T23:48:00.002+08:00

I do really wanna help.
but i'm only allow to a certain extend.

i'm so careful when dealing with all the Dearest friends now.
i cant afford to make any of them to feel upset because of me.
the hearts are actually linked together.

sometimes, its not that i'm able to handle or not.
but i want to or not.
i'm sure you can handle it too.
just have faith in youself.

2010-12-05T18:17:00.002+08:00

i really miss nafa days,
cuz if i'm still studying.. i will be having my holidays now. =D
i'm really missing lots of stuff from the past.

somehow it feels like those days,
but something is blocking against.
i know i cant.
although things are nice and so near.

2010-12-04T03:50:00.002+08:00

i feel like a kid in universal studio.
so much like having holiday overseas, with excited mood and the best appetite.
and i survived through the mummy ride, so proud of myself. HAHA
so scary can, i shouted like mad with tears squeezed out too. but so fun la.
didnt manage to try all the rides due to the bad weather.
and i really like the shrek 4D show.
i wanna go there again next time.
anyone? i can be ur tour guide. haha

oh well, it has been so long,
i mean it feels very long.
i cant explain the feelings.
just too blank for it.

2010-12-01T00:48:00.002+08:00

too much damage for today.
a good night sleep shall cure everythig. =)

this is the time when i see and feel so much love.

tmr definitely will be a better day ahead.

2010-11-30T00:12:00.003+08:00

monday,
with bad weather.
but nice mood.
i just completed my catalogue, one task done. phew.
still left with my stressing vm.
days ahead gona be busy, but i'm so excited about xmas.

had nice dinner at the usual chinatown restaurant, the fav dou miaos.
dia and susan were so shock regarding my loss of fats.
cuz my chubby face is gone.
mum is still mad about losing her fav hamburger face of mine.

and i just finished my last tablet of antibiotic. yeahs.
but i think i'm not fully recover yet.
so i guess i still need more antibiotic? end of the world gona happen again.
i'm not going to fall sick so easily again.

i feel so good being with all the understanding friends.

i'm always late for work nowadays, thats bad.
and didnt manage to get my swatch today.

something random,
we were listening to jj's song ytd and theres a part with 记得 tune in it.
and its stuck in my head for the whole day.

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

2010-11-28T17:05:00.001+08:00

Dear all,
its time to wake up.
my heart is waking.

Goodbye my Love.

2010-11-27T02:21:00.001+08:00

Tap out.

2010-11-26T01:45:00.002+08:00

it died.
disappeared in this world.
so how am i suppose to tell you if i miss you?
and you never know, never gona feel anything.

2010-11-25T01:25:00.002+08:00

I was thinking about you, thinking about me, thinking about us..
what we gona be? open my eyes.. it was only just a dream..
so i travel back down that road, will you come back? no one knows, i realised, it was only just a dream..

2010-11-22T08:06:00.001+08:00

一整天最幸福的事；你看着我，用心的唱着歌

2010-11-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

一整天最期待的是什么？

2010-11-12T01:17:00.001+08:00

Did you realise it covers all off?
did you realise whats deep in the heart?

2010-11-10T19:05:00.001+08:00

Trust me, cause i'm not the ultimate liar.

2010-11-08T00:55:00.000+08:00

its cold..
but bearable still..

2010-11-07T03:44:00.001+08:00

不甘我们的爱死在半途

2010-11-07T01:57:00.002+08:00

it takes one little step to realise all.
have a deep search in the heart.

simple and true.

2010-10-31T01:14:00.002+08:00

This song is stuck in my head since friday.

which version do you prefer?

2010-10-28T02:00:00.002+08:00

I'm gona be frank,
to my heart, to my mind, and to you.
I shall follow my heart,
to reduce any pain.
and it will be the better way out.

2010-10-23T01:08:00.009+08:00

kitty man

my kitty head so big

2010-10-22T00:37:00.003+08:00

i left something precious behind
and took away something which contain nothing.
i realised i'm cruel to myself too.

2010-10-21T01:55:00.002+08:00

its a happy day.
cuz its our dearest kang's birthday.
but the only sad thing is.. our group is 四分五裂 now.
what else can i do?
why didnt you all realise that i do really cherish.
why didnt you search for an answer in your heart.

anyway,
happy birthday ah kang!!

2010-10-19T22:31:00.004+08:00

me and my designer partner are quite nervous for tmr's photoshoot.
esp when boss is not around, we got to settle everything ourselves.
thats my 2nd photoshoot, and it feels different.

it feels different too.. when i am alone at unfamiliar places.

anyway, i got a maroon5 cd as a present. so glad that it really cheered me up.
thanks ster.
and i'm still listening now.
=)

how did my ulcers came about?
and why they took weeksss to recover?
thats bad.

my bro bought a sling bag online,
and it looks really nice.
since when he got such nice and similar taste as me?
i'm amazed. haha

i want to watch eat, pray, love soon.

2010-10-19T01:18:00.001+08:00

can you replace it?

2010-10-17T18:12:00.003+08:00

i cried so hard when i woke up this afternoon..
i still couldnt wake up from the horrible nightmare.
i'm so scared.. so disappointed.

2010-10-16T12:05:00.003+08:00

i did my best, i got no regrets.

at least i'm true..

and you were the best of all. really.

but it was only a beautiful side.

you proved me wrong.

when i always thought and wished it was true.

2010-10-14T22:19:00.002+08:00

everyone is feeling down.
i might be the one feeling worst.

its gona be a warehouse day tmr.
and i'm gona work like a zombie.
thats bad.

i got a split personality colleague,
so i dunno when to joke, when to be serious.
its scary.. but you think i care?
i will just go split personality together.

sometimes, things just prove me wrong, so wrong.
i believe.. things will be better.. with or without.

thats hurt.. when i did my best but it seems that i'm the worst person in the earth.

2010-10-13T00:36:00.001+08:00

the eyes are always weak..
and i cant help it.

2010-10-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

kind of slack today..
was sending emails to manufacturer and waiting for their reply.
and slacking makes me feel sleepy.
i hope we can travel around for shop visiting again soon.

thats unhealthy when emotions blends in with stomach.

2010-10-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

i felt so much better after my shower..
although i'm seeing so much negative stuff here and there,
but still.. if i not gona stay positive, my life will be so hard.

i'm feeling tired..
shall sleep soon.

2010-09-30T23:19:00.002+08:00

i really need a cup for myself in office..
it doesnt feel good when i'm sharing cups with 30 over colleagues.

dear daniel is out for the whole week.
and i'm spending my stress free week till hes back.
sent my designs to him and i didnt get any reply..
i guess he got a lot to say when hes back.

quincy is behaving like a dog,
and miu miu is behaving like a cat.

am i behaving like a old woman
or behaving like a freak?

this kind of freedom feels lonely..

2010-09-26T21:23:00.003+08:00

yesterday my throat and gum was recovering, but i think today the sore is coming back again.
i accidentally took spicy food. =(
and i'm missing all the fried food now.

i hope the coming weekdays will be fast and fun.
so my dearest weekends will be here again.

i wanna go shopping.

and i love spending days with you.